Thanks to those of you who emailed or called. No I haven't moved to Nova Scotia...yet. No, I'm not 100% ...yet...hopefully I will be soon 'cause the way I'm feeling right now truly sucks big time. I'm definitely in hermit mode. It's easier to check out my friend's blogs than to post on mine these days. Every time I start to write something political I get upset or angry or manic and I just can't finish so I delete everything in frustration and just go back to mindlessly surfing the net or when that gets old, watching HGTV.
Haven't been able to sleep much this week either. Nightmares of nuclear war almost every single night. Trust me, waking up terrified at 3 in the am and not being able to get back to sleep for the rest of the night does not make for a happy Kathy. The latest I slept all during the past week was 6 am...far cry from my usual wake up time of 7:30/7:45.
Can't stomach political stuff yet. As much as I love watching Jon and The Daily Show, can't do that. Have sworn off Anderson Cooper who I'm crazy about...yeah, I know he's 'not on my team', but who cares...intelligence is sexy, regardless. Have given up the Nightly News with Tom and the local news. Whenever I see GWB's face I wanna puke or throw something at the TV. So I don't go there anymore. My stomach has started churning as I type this, so time for a subject change.
Jacob has been in MA for most of this week. Very quiet house, which has probably added to my hermetic way of life. That, and working until 8 most nights this week, by the time I come home the last thing I want to do is to talk to anyone. So that's why I've called no one. No calling, no TV watching, some reading, lots of staring off into space. And procrastinating...MEGA procrastinating.
Meant to balance my checkbook for the last week...ok, month...still not done. Caulking the tub in Jacob's bathroom...was supposed to do that last Tuesday night...still not done. He'll be home in the am so I'd really better do it tonite...we'll see what happens.
In fairness, I did do some things I'd been putting off. Paid bills. Faxed in my pharmacy receipts for Flex account reimbursements. Dealt with a confrontation that I didn't want to do, actually was dreading it, but did it anyway. Cancelled my landline...had been meaning to do that for ages. And I applied for a part-time job for nights and weekends. Hey, Costco pays $10/hr during the week, $15/hr on Sundays...not too shabby. Also sent out a mass-email asking for roommate leads. So yeah, some things were accomplished.
Have spent a lot of time thinking this might be a good time for a change.
I promised myself before the election that depending on who won, would determine my action plan. If Kerry won, I planned on staying in my current job (that I truly love), hoping the economy would improve which would result in hospital hiring freezes being lifted which would make all the difference in my industry and hopefully the industry would rebound. Sadly, that did not happen. If anything, I fear things will get worse. So time to find another job. And get a part-time job (paragraph above-already working on that!) Resume is ready, just need to take the next step and (gulp) start sending them out.
Have also been thinking maybe it's time for a change in location. While I do love it here, I'm not tied here. Would make a nice profit on my house, move somewhere Blue that doesn't have too much snow or too much humidity, find a smaller house - maybe a townhome as long as they would allow dogs- and just start all over. If I got a good enough deal, pay cash outright for it and own it from day one. And since I'm going to be looking for a new job anyway, why not consider other geographical locations? My parents have asked me 3x in the last two weeks to move back to So Cal. It's just not possible. When I left CA, I knew I'd be pricing myself out of ever living there again (barring a lottery windfall). And the earthquakes got to me too...massive big time. So yeah, CA is out of the question, even tho my parents said I was welcome to move in with them until I found a place of my own. Thanks anyway Dad and Mom.
Other changes I'm considering are not as radical. Like chopping off most of my hair and dyeing it purple. I did the drastic chop-off back when I lived in San Jose. Woke up one day tired of having long hair (half-way down my back) so I went into my salon and told my stylist 'chop it all off' so she did -after asking me if I was drunk- and once my hair was an even inch long, she bleached the tips for much longer than she thought she should. I left with very short brunette hair with spiky golden-white tips. Ha ha, funny.
My husband at the time was not amused. Definitely not amused. But I loved it...made life so much easier.
And now...yet again my hair is half-way down my back...takes minimum 25 minutes to blow-dry and all on the days I decide to blow dry. Lately have been putting it up wet and it dries during the course of the day. So yeah, chopping it off is on my mind again. And purple...gotta love that color.
What to do, what to do. Don't really know. Possibilities abound but right now I think I have to focus on what's time sensitive and immediate. Like the upstairs bathroom that is calling to me.
Yep, time to get caulking.
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