Yom Kippur ended tonite at sundown. It also culminated the High Holy Days, which start with Rosh Hashanah (Head of the Year) and end with Yom Kippur, also known as the Day of Atonement.
This Yom Kippur was particularly insightful for me. I spent a lot of time in reflection over the last 26 hours. Last year I did not spend the High Holy Days in the most observant of ways. And soon after enough bad and painful and hurtful events occured that made me think I had dissapointed God and he was trying to get my attention to teach me a lesson. Laugh if you want, but that was my take on things,
This past year has been trying in many ways....physical, mental, financial and emotional. My faith never wavered which was of great comfort to me. And at one point, after my sister-in-law died suddenly and tragically, I decided to stop stressing over what was happening in my life and try to learn from it. Not that anyone can know why things happen. My new outlook was more of 'ok, this is happening, learn to live with it and learn from it'.
So I did. And decided to make the best of any situation that came along and try to see the good or the kind or the lesson to be learned in each and every instance. And for the most part, I did. I learned to trust that there really IS a reason behind what happens. Maybe it won't be apparent to me anytime soon, but I had enough of 'ah-ha' moments this year that I learned that lesson well.
I learned the lesson of having faith in others and trusting in others, even tho sometimes it is hard to trust those that are new to your life. I learned that continuing to listen to my gut feeling will never steer me wrong. And especially this year has shown me that I need to be more disciplined in certain areas of my life where I've slacked off. No one to blame but myself, so there ya go.
While I'm not an active synagogue attendee, I feel much better about my observance of this High Holy Day season. I feel more centered and sure of what I need to do to be a better me. And I'm forever grateful that even tho last year was a kick in the gut, that it wasn't as bad as it could have been.
The fasting is over and it's a new year, from a Jewish standpoint. Starting over or starting fresh...however you choose to look at it...is a good option to have.