Long story short, something's been wrong with me for awhile. I have extreme dizziness...don't know why...and it's getting worse. It's not vertigo. I've been tested. It's not anything having to do with ears or eyes...I've had those tests too. Anxiety was considered a cause but after visiting a Biofeedback Clinician and having her witness one of my 'episodes' she urged me 5 times in 3 minutes to get a brain MRI. Stat.
So.
Had one scheduled last week and even tho I've had several MRI's before (none were of the brain) and I thought I could handle it, to be blunt, I 'freaked the fuck out'. Severe claustrophobia. Hyperventilated. Couldn't stop crying. It was horrible.
I've started using a trek stick to help maintain my balance as I walk. It used to help but lately things are getting worse and tomorrow I'm looking at getting an actual cane. This is all so weird.
Having an Open MRI on Thursday which I hope I can manage. Anything has to be better than the closed MRI. I'm still having nightmares from that episode.
I miss walking unassisted. I miss being social. I base all social plans on how close I can park to where I'm going and how much walking is involved. I loathe walking into and out of work each day and do everything I can to stay away from the food court and the rest of the mall. (Wide open spaces are much worse than small spaces).
So that is what's going on in Kathyland. Thought you should know. Not for sympathy. Not for anything but keeping you in the loop. Life is short. Don't take your health for granted.
Over and out for now.
xo
Love you.
Posted by: Cali | Tuesday, 09 August 2011 at 10:09 PM
That sounds just miserable, Kath! I get dizzy spells when I'm extremely tired and those are bad enough...I can't imagine having it chronically to the degree you are. :( PLEASE let us know if there is ANYTHING we can do for you. Sending love your way!
Posted by: Hannah Camacho | Tuesday, 09 August 2011 at 10:31 PM
Premedication for MRI should be a standard! Don't let the anxiety get the best of you... we have some great tools for getting a diagnostic scan. Cool breeze, video goggles, and a healthy dose of benzos.
We're thinking about ya! =)
HUGS
Posted by: Little | Tuesday, 09 August 2011 at 11:36 PM
I wish there was something I could do to help. Just know that I'm thinking about you, sending you a big virtual hug, and miss you! xoxo
P.S. Request a Valium for that MRI!
Posted by: rosie | Wednesday, 10 August 2011 at 05:55 AM
Hi Kath ...
Sending healing prayers and positive thoughts your direction. Hoping you get an answer soon to what's going on ...
xoxo -- Karen
Posted by: Karen | Friday, 12 August 2011 at 10:50 AM
Thanks so much, guys!
The open MRI was not successful :-(
Freaked out again, couldn't stop crying, puked before I left home, while I was there, when I got back home. Still having nightmares.
Waiting on an authorization to have an MRI at Avista where I'll be (hopefully) deeply sedated. As in, knocked out. Here's hoping!
Posted by: Kath | Tuesday, 16 August 2011 at 11:11 PM
Hello Kathy, Can't believe it! please let me know if there is anything I can do. Hugs, love Chaya
Posted by: chaya | Wednesday, 17 August 2011 at 01:04 AM
How are you feeling?
Posted by: Bill Daley | Friday, 19 August 2011 at 02:41 PM
Let me know if you need anything. I am here.
Posted by: Clare - Never Niche | Sunday, 28 August 2011 at 10:07 AM