Stuff

In no particular order of importance...

So hey...what's up?  Had a super fun night last night that will be blogged about soon. But for now?  Just random thoughts that are really neither here nor there.

I used to be all 'TGIF' and woohoo for every Friday cause I wanted the weekend to be here so I could relax from Job #1. Now? I'm still all woohoo for 'TGIF', but now it's cause I'm jazzed to work 8 hrs on Sat and Sun at J#2.

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Seeing a Vertigo/Dizziness Specialist in several weeks. My dizziness has gotten worse to where freeway driving is done only when absolutely necessary. I am fine at driving surface streets morning and night...dizziness then is minimal if at all. And if the freeway is stop and go, I'm fine. But anything over 40 mph is tough and let's not even think about E470. It's also become problematic at J#2 due to the nature of what I do, but in true J#2 form, they are awesome and wonderful and kind and understanding and I just love them all to death and more cause they are that beyond fantastic. OK, gush session over.

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Sometimes I want to express opinions but I don't, thinking my friends will think I am talking about them even when I am not. So I stay silent. Maybe it's for the best.

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The more I see and experience, the more I believe we are here on purpose and what happens to us happens for a reason. And if we are analytical and aware enough, we may even figure out the 'what or why'. Or not.

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With the intent of getting back into working out, I bought a new pair of Nike's. First new pair of workout shoes since Aug 2001. And all I've done is worn them to work..as opposed to working out. Lately, I'm all 'why bother'. Why bother losing weight. Why bother working out. What's so great about being a single digit size? Does it guarantee happiness? (nope) Does it bring you extra money (nope) I guess I don't have a strong enough 'why should I'. And until I do, I probably won't.

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Paid $76 to fill up my truck today. Most I've ever spent.

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Saturday is 4 months to the day that my sister-in-law Michele passed away...or was killed. Final autopsy came back and there are enough discrepancies in the report that my brother feels his wife was killed by subpar care...which makes her death even sadder.

I've been missing Michele so much lately. Everytime I see a little bunny in the front yard I think of her. Michele loved bunnies...just loved them beyond words. She was buried with 3 stuffed bunnies...one from me, my sister Diane and my sister Kelly. My bunny was a Colorado Cottontail. I've started calling Michele's cell phone just to hear her voice. I'm so glad my brother has kept her cell active. I want her to pick up the phone and talk to me when I call, but it's just not gonna happen. Stil, it's nice to hear her voice.

Comments

[hdw]

I spent 71 and I think my jaw is still back there from hitting the pavement.

[LG]

I know how you feel about still missing that someone lost - and I cant imagine how much harder it would be knowing it could have been evaded. I say put those Nike's to good use and take walks when you can, just to get outside. I always feel good about myself when I am getting some exercise - screw clothing sizes! I eat healthy and exercise for me, because I personally feel a helluva lot better when I do. Maybe dont look at it as a means of losing weight, but just doing something good for your body. If you lose weight - great - if you dont - great! At least you'll feel better! Or at least I do. :)

[rosalicious]

Let me know how the dizziness appt goes...if they make you do an ENG vestibular test well, I FEEL FOR YOU! I had to do one at exactly this time last year...it wasn't fun.

And I also don't express opinions for that same reason. That's the only reason I'd give up blogging...I feel like I can't say anything.