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Don't Take Anything For Granted


Don't take life, family, love, health, friends, proximity to friends, sunny days, chances to sleep in, the internet. Don't take anyone or anything for granted.

That is the lesson of the week, so learn it well, ok?

I am home safe, but exhausted, brokenhearted, missing my family (yet beyond thrilled to be back at J#2) and overall just crashing big time.

So nnsd from here!


Moving In Stereo

The quality of light has been fantastic since I've been back in California...almost surreally so.

Back in the day when I was in College, so many times California was a hazy, overcast, smoggy place to be. Yet every now and then, the skies would clear and the view was magnificent. Foothills so close you could reach out and touch them. Amazing SoCal sunsets. Perfect weather. And In-N-Outs close to any offramp of your choosing between my sibling's homes and my parent's house. In a word, heaven.

Today it was like college all over again. Except the nephews that were infants then are now full-grown. Same for my niece. Instead of driving to see them, they come to see me. And even let me drive their cars. (Thanks Casey!)

Cruising around with Casey today, reminiscing on life in Cali. The good. The bad. And as of this last week, the sad. Sometimes just being with family and talking about the minutiae of the history of our family can be exactly what's needed. Sharing meals, be they homecooked with love, offered by friends and acquaintances or even (ahem) a certain drive thru burger restaurant that we lavish massive love's all a part of what makes you feel better and brings you together.

And sometimes, words aren't even necessary. Especially as you drive into the sunset of another exceedingly gorgeous California day, knowing that you are with family, you love them beyond what words can describe, and you are moving in stereo together.

Housekeeping Notes

Packing to fly to CA for my sister-in-law Michele's funeral. It was so weird to type that last sentence.

Thanks to all of you that emailed privately and responded publically. Your kindess and good thoughts have been so appreciated by myself and my family (my sisters Diane and Kelly read my blog, as does my Cousin Bill). My work buddies (from both J#1 and J#2) have been beyond remarkble as well and have helped to make a very difficult week bearable.

My 'Call Bullshit' challenge will be in effect tomorrow, Monday 2/25 but will not be ongoing while I am in CA...especially since I will be an hour behind you guys in CO and I will be staying at various places.

Finally, internet access will be sporadic over the next week but I'll check in when I can.

Thanks again for being such wonderful friends.

The Hardest Call I've Ever Had To Make

I just called my brother Brian to tell him how very sorry I am. His darling wife Michele passed away this afternoon.

We don't know why or how it happened. She had a procedure, it went smoothly, the Dr's were finishing up and her heart stopped. They worked on her for over an hour.

Michele was awesome, amazing and absolutely wonderful. My brother is heart broken as are their 3 boys. My whole family is crushed, me included.

I'll write more when I can write without crying.

For now? Please think good thoughts for my brother Brian and their sons Tommy, Matt and Jeff.


Calling Bullshit

Another way of keepin' it real.

Here's the deal.

This past summer I had a weight loss challenge with a buddy, Not too many people knew about it. The reason for the challenge was two-fold... to lose weight in preparation for my surgery in July and to be healthier.

As challenges go, I did pretty good. Now? It's time to take it to the next step. And you get to be part of the challenge, if you so wish.

Starting this Monday 25 February I will be pushing myself to be up at 5:30 and at the gym by 6 am when it opens. I WILL DO THIS! Monday, Wednesday and Friday will be my morning gym days from 6-6:45 am MT.

If you want to play along and 'Call Bullshit' as it were, here's how you can participate.

Starting Monday, you can call my cell between 5:45-6 am MT time.

If I am awake and on my way to the gym when you call, you owe me a drink. If you call and I am snoozing, I owe you a drink and a dollar. How can you tell if I am snoozing or awake? When I answer the phone in snoozing mode, you will so know. I will be all slurry...and barely talking...and probably call you honey or sweetie or maybe even honeybunny. Then I will stop talking and fall back to sleep.

When (not if) I am awake, I will talk normally. And you will be able to tell if I am in my truck or at the gym.

So what say you? Up for a challenge to call me at my own game?

For the record, this challenge terrifies me. I LOVE to sleep late. I also like to stay up late! Really. But knowing that some of you may call my cell...and that I HATE to lose...I have decided to try this for a month.


I will be on vacation from 4-8 March in sunny San Diego and the challenge does not apply to that time frame.

So where were we?? Oh yeah! Me. Exercising/losing weight/and hopefully not losing my shirt in the process.

You in??

Yet Another Quiz

Work email was down so I took this quiz!

You are a Creator

Your imagination, confidence, willingness to explore, and appreciation of beauty make you a CREATOR.

You are independent, and you enjoy your self-sufficiency.

Defying convention, you are very innovative, and you have a vivid imagination.

The look of things is important to you, and you have a keen eye for aesthetic beauty in multiple arenas.

You have a strong interest in what is new and exciting—and that includes forging ahead with new ideas, not simply discovering what is already out there.

Your eagerness to seek new and varied experiences leads you into many different situations.

You're not set on one way of doing things, and you are creative when it comes to finding novel solutions to complex problems.

You trust yourself to be innovative and resourceful.

Your confidence allows you to take your general awareness and channel it into creativity.

Your independent streak allows you to make decisions efficiently and to trust your instincts

You prefer to have time to plan for things, feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up in the air until the last minute.

Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.

how you relate to others
You are Dynamic

As someone who is DYNAMIC, you do not have a hard time meeting new people, and you have a bunch of close friends.

You are not overly concerned with what others may think about you, which leaves you free to be thoroughly involved in the world around you.

There are those who find being around people exhausting—but not you! Interacting with others, whether at a party or in conversation, gives you energy.

You have a strong sense of what the world is like and how it should be.

You have enormous respect for those who have earned their success, and have little patience for those who try to bend the rules or ride on the coattails of others' hard work.

Believing in the importance of integrity and hard work doesn't stop you from believing that people will do the right thing—you know that people are good at heart.

You sometimes have trouble understanding why others feel the way they do, but it doesn't stop you from having faith and trust in those around you.

Part of what makes engaging with people so interesting for you is that you occasionally learn something new about yourself or about a problem you're having when discussing things with others.

Your strong worldview leads you to believe that people shouldn't rely on their emotions so much when making decisions.


...of extra challenges I want to do, new ways to think, and possible new ways of looking at old concepts.

First up...

Considering asking my full-time job if I can switch to 10 hour days so I can work 4 days a week. That way I can have more time to myself as well as more time for Job#2.

Then there's this....

I know I have gone on record by saying there is no way I can vote for Hillary Clinton. After doing more research on John McCain, I am rescinding my decision. If Barack Obama is not the nominee, I will be heartbroken. And yes, it would be voting for the lesser of two evils, but I would vote for HC. Then I'd go crawl in a cave, curl up in a fetal position, and wonder how I will live with myself over the next 4 years.

Here's another idea...

Want to take a page from my buddy Micah and do something really bold and allow you all to call bullshit on me when needed in a certain aspect of my life. But I am not sure I am brave for now it's still in 'thinking-about-it' mode.

Finally, am seeing an allergist in 2 weeks to get to the bottom of why I am getting hives each and every single damn day. It's getting old...really old...and I am tired of it.

It was a really fun Valentine's Day for me...hope it was for you as well.

Matters Of The Heart

Thursday is Valentine's Day. Seems with each passing year, people are either strongly for it or strongly against it.

Here's my take.

It's just a day. One day set aside to make that someone special that you love feel a little extra special and cared for. Might it be an over-commercialized event? Depends on your viewpoint. Having dated Donny Hall once in college (his family owns Hallmark Cards) I love it that his company and others like it benefit from this day. I love it that florists benefit from this day. I worked for a florist for 3 years and I can tell you that Valentine's Day in a flower shop is INSANE!

Rather than let the day control you or your feelings or lack of someone special in your life, use it as an excuse to really think about what it is and who it is that you love.

My answer is simple. Valentine's Day will be all about me.

Being married or having a special someone does not guarantee you a wonderful Valentine's Day. Some of the saddest of them happened to me while I was married, with a happy one sprinkeled here and there. VD 2007 was interesting, in a weird kind of way but at the end of the 4 am...I was happy with the outcome.

This year I have plans for what will make me happy, speak to my heart and make me smile.

I'm renewing my gym membership. I'm having a nice dinner out. And I'm signed up for an Apple One to One class. All for me, all guaranteed to put a smile on my face and a song in my heart. Both the dinner and the gym membership will be a bit of a splurge....about $13 for dinner and $35 for 3 months of gym membership...the Apple class is part of a yearly package.

Not saying you have to make plans like me. And if you hate Valentine's Day, well ok, that's your perogative. When all is said and done, I would hope that you will stop for a second and think of a way or two to show love to the very important person that you are instead of hoping or wishing or wanting someone to do it for you.

Have a lovely Valentine's Day.

Putting His Everything Where His Mouth Is

You know that saying 'put your money where your mouth is'?

Well let me introduce you to Micah. Pronounced 'Me-ha", not 'Mike-ah", just so we are clear on that.

Anyway, Micah is a local blogger I 'met' thru my buddy Andrew Hyde. I read Micah's blog or he read my blog or however it happened, we read each other's blogs and now we link to each other plus we are now Twitter buddies as well. Never have we met in person. Or talked on the phone. Or even texted. You get my drift.

Yet, without having gone thru the meeting and the greeting, I would have to say that Micah is one of the bloggers that I hold in the highest regard when it comes to respect and admiration. Micah's honesty and passion and drive are always front and center. Time after time he nails it by being totally-brutally-in-your-face-honest. I genuinely respect that in a person.

Micah's latest post is proof yet again of his bravery to lay his life on the page and make it public for all to see and to attempt to improve what needs improving in his life without making any excuses.

I guess in a way this is sort of a 'fan' post in recognition and admiration for the sheer amount of courage it takes to do what he does. That is Micah. Always keeping it real.

Micah, I hope to meet you one of these days?? months?? years??

In the meantime, I'll keep reading and appreciating your honesty and cheering you on as you create the Micah you want to become.

Best of luck, blog buddy!

What Day Is It?

I've been out of it since returning from my trip.

Between sleeping, calling out sick, sleeping some more, and seeing my Dr. for an ongoing issue, I don't know where the time's gone.

Feeling mostly better today. My voice is back and I seem to have caught up on sleep. Just in time to work J#2 all day today, then party like mad with HDW and friends tonite, and work all day tomorrow.

Haven't read most of my fave blogs in ages. So not like me.

OK, I need to get going and start my day.

Happy Weekending :-)


Was a fun time in Tampa, for the most part.

Sunny, warm, not too humid. Very weird to see green green grass and flowers blooming. Met up with one of my clients (Hi Mamita!) who has been with me for 7 years yet I'd never met in person. She showed me the International Mall in Tampa aka the Palm Tree Mall. I showed her a MacBook Air, iPhone and iPod Touch. We had drinks, apps and desert at Cheesecake Factory. And the next night she came by my hotel (after I had consumed mass quantities of iguanatini's - don't ask) so I could meet her daughter (Hi Crystal!).

There were several sick people - read that as hacking, coughing, wheezing - in our training sessions and guess who acquired their illness? Yeah, that would be me. It was very weird working in cubicle land again and something I hope to never have to do for the rest of my life. It was nice meeting my Tampa co-workers who I'd only talked to on the phone over the last 3 years.

Airline travel is always the same. Screaming babies, people who coulda used a good shower but for some bizarre reason decided not to partake of soap and water, those that stuff their whole life into their carry-on and those ever-annoying TSA lines. Noticed the 'threat level' was raised to Orange. Is that because the Dem's are gaining ground?

So I'm back and just finished day one. Showered, which helped me breathe. Need to make a grocery run since I am out of milk and soup and limes. What?? They are good for hot water w/ lime!! Then later it will be back to work. It was soooo good to sleep in my own bed last night. Once again, it's the little things that mean the most.

The Power Of The Blogosphere a wonderful thing.

Case in point.

Just got home from HDW's Super Bowl party which I hit up on my way home from work. Fun time as ALWAYS whenever HDW is involved. Also there sharing the fun was Heather. And earlier at work today...Job #2 for those of you that track my every move....I got to meet Tom and Dale.

Now what do all of these wonderful people have in common?

I met them thru the Blogosphere. All of them!

HDW was the very first Denver blogger I met when I came to Denver. We met at Elway's one night after having been blog-buddies for about 5 months and that was all it took. About a year later, I met Heather. Now? I cannot begin to imagine my life without HDW or Heather or any of my other blog friends in it.

And now Tom and Dale. I was watching out for them, since Tom had mentioned via Twitter he and Dale would be in the vicinity of J#2. And mid-day, there they were!

As Tom says in his rendition, I DID run up to them. I was so so excited to meet them and good thing Tom posts pix on his blog cause they looked exactly like their pictures, except thinner. I impulsively hugged them both and had a feeling they would know not to be taken aback by the hugginess...cause if you read my blog you sorta kinda get that I am a huggy type of person.

It was semi-slammed at work so we could not chat for long :-( Still, it WAS so nice to finally meet them and once again I have proof positive that you meet the NICEST people in the Blogosphere.

In honor of the occasion...and because I am a huge goofball, I composed a poem ;

The power of the blogosphere
There you are
You might be near, you might be far
Distance doesn't matter, neither does time
When you're online it works out fine
We listen to stories about what makes us tick
Celebrate the good times
Worry when you're sick
All barriers down
Defenses broken
The real you comes thru in what's written, not spoken
Thanks to the internet I've met all of you
I know who you are and what you do
Such good buddies and wonderful friends
Al Gore's internet is where friends begin.

Ok, my attempt at poetry. FWIW.

Thanks to ALL my internet buddies, both recent and from long ago. Your friendship is a blessing and I really don't know what I'd do without each and every one of you in my life.



Early Weekend Wrap-Up

Yeah, I know the weekend has just started. Seeing as tonite is the only free night I'll have for awhile, figured I would bring you up to speed.

Tonite is finishing up leftover work from Job#1. Then pack for my trip to Tampa, pay bills, do laundry.

Saturday is errands and working a full day at Job #2.

Sunday more J#2 and Super Bowl party afterwards.

Monday it's off to Tampa.

My weekend in a nutshell.

Hope yours is wonderful!