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Last night re-watched one of my most favorite movies of 2004. So of course all day today I kept thinking about bits and pieces of the movie...and memories...and relationships...and the whole ball of wax.

The first time I saw 'ESOTSM' I was speechless. I so completely related to both's almost like each character combined into a being that is so close to who I am (without the blue hair, tho). The Joel part of me that is cautious and quiet and withdrawn. And the Clementine part of me that is outgoing, impulsive, risk-taking and fearless. How they each had characteristics that supremely annoyed the other yet when it was all said and done, they couldn't live without each other. And the movie, for those who haven't seen it, documents the length they go to to do just that.

Today started out cold, overcast and chilly. It was great sleeping a little later than normal, snuggling under my comforter with the chilly air coming in thru the window right next to my bed. Reminded me of San Francisco in the morning. For close to two years I worked in San Francisco 3-4 days a week at my client's office. Their offices were in the Hamm's Bldg, a historical building in the Mission District, right across the street from the Hostess Bakery. Cold windy mornings that smelled like cupcakes...yum! Always a fond memory.

Talking to my clients thru-out the day, relationships seemed to be the theme of the day. Several clients going thru rough times, some happy times. A client's long-term relationship with his prized vehicle up in smoke...literally. Caught and fire and was totalled. He and his dog are ok thank goodness, but his ride and his pride are no more.

Tonite, was home alone for the longest time. Felt really good to have a chance to eat, do laundry, watch tv, blog and chat on the phone in silence and solitude. Don't get me wrong...I really like both my roomies quite a bit, but every now and then it is nice to have my place all to myself.

And now, as I'm ending my day, what do I find on tv? Some friends from around the corner from my old stomping ground in San Francisco...I used to visit here all the time.

Brings back memories.


My roomie and his honey are watching 'Napoleon Dynamite'. How do I know this considering they are behind closed doors at the other end of the house?

Having watched it 6 times in 4 days, I sorta have the music cues down-pat. that sad or what?

But Do They Celebrate Hanukkah??

You scored as Druidism.

Druids didn't recruit members as
other religions did, instead believing that there
was a "kernal of truth in all religions".

They will take no life of any form.

They were respected in the past to the point that
even a king of the land would not draw a blade
in their presence, this respect was so deep rooted
that a druid has been recorded stopping a battle
just by standing between the two armies,
neither side would draw a blade while
the druid was present and finally
worked out their differences with
the help of the druid.



Confusion -ism








What religion are you closest to?
created with

I'm Back!

Back to normal...or at least as close to normal as I can be.

Guess all the sleeping did the trick. Fell asleep at 7 last night and woke up at 3:30 in the am....STARVED. So one PBJ and a glass of milk later (and reading a blog or two) it was back to sleep. Woke up about 45 minutes ago and I feel so good. First thing I wanted to do was to hit the gym...and I still might once I finish this post.

The thing that really sticks out over the last almost week is the frequency of BIZARRO dreams I had. Mentioned in a post earlier this week that while I have dreams every night and remember most of them the next day, dreams that I have when sick are...well...sick. Maybe an added symptom of being sick is wacko dreams?

Here's several of them -

* Was living back in San Jose and somehow the streets had become hilly like SF. So the City of San Jose had mass transit roller coasters to go UP and Down the main streets of San Jose. Blossom Hill, Stevens Creek Blvd, El Camino Real...all one big roller coaster. It was alot of fun too....everyone, no matter what time of the day or night, got into the whole 'roller coaster' thing and screamed their lungs out. They had scheduled stops of course to let people on and off. And I recall the coasters went really really high...150 feet in the air...and the scenery was so beautiful. And then we had a huge earthquake and everything got swallowed up in the earth....and then I woke up.

*Had just signed up for a T-Mobile phone and didn't realize the fine print said that everything in my life had to be T-Mobile. My blog, my computer, my health plan, my homeowners association...everything. I couldn't get my iBook to work anymore, all my phone numbers had vanished, people I didn't even know were calling my phone and T-Mobile decided to buy my house and remake it as an apt complex....but they raised the entire building a by a story and didn't put access stairs so I could get into my house. Funny, Catherine Zeta-Mrs. Douglas was not in the dream.

* This is one of the weirdest ones. Tried to hit on a guy who reminded me of a platonic friend of mine. The guy I tried to hit on was 400 #, lived in a really nice house on a golf-course and was a smoker! YUCK! The grossest thing about that whole sentence was the smoker part...I can't be around cigarettes or the people that smoke them...makes me sick and grosses me out. And while I have only hit on maybe two guys in my entire life, I would never ever hit on a smoker cause I wouldn't be able to breathe around him. Then one of my very wise friends suggested it was a metaphor to remind me not to be around people that can suck the air/joy/etc. out of my life. Hmmmm.

*This is probably the weirdest one that I had several times. Each time I would tell myself it was time to get up, but when I sat up I melted. Tried to figure out how to get out of bed without sitting maybe slinking over the edge without being noticed..but no...I would melt each time I tried that. The longer it took to get out of bed, the more frustrated I became. After several episodes I got to that half-way-in and half-way-out of sleep stage where you are pretty sure you are dreaming but not 100%. So I invoked the Kobiyashi Marue mindset (and if you know what that is you KNOW I am a true geek) and the dream ended. And I didn't melt when I woke up.

So there you have it, a peek into my nocturnal brain. Fun huh?

Time to get this Saturday rock 'n' rolling and get out of bed. Without melting.

Yet Another Whiny Rant

Not really a rant, I guess...maybe just a mini-whine-fest?

Still sick...still feeling horrible...still not able to talk. All I do is sleep when I'm not at work.  For the past couple of nites I've crashed around 8:30 or 9.  When I'm in normal mode, am usually up until 1 am at least.

Not even hungry, so I think I'm gonna call it a nite right now and snooze off. Before I go, can I just TELL you what bizarre dreams I've been having since I've been sick? They are wacked, surreal, scary-frightening enough to wake me up.

NNSD and I'll chat with ya on Saturday.

My Soul

You Are a Warrior Soul
You're a strong person and sometimes seen as intimidating. You don't give up. You're committed and brave. Truly adventuresome, you are not afraid of going to battle. Extremely protective of loved ones, you root for the underdog. You are picky about details and rigorous in your methods. You also value honesty and fairness a great deal. You can be outspoken, intimidating, headstrong, and demanding. You're a hardliner who demands the best from themselves and others. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

Still Sick

A quick hey ya while I wait for the laundry to dry. I'm not the type of person that can let clothes stay in the dryer once they are dry...cause that means wrinkles and I am not into wrinkled clothes...and yes I have an iron but what the heck I am anal-retentive that way so I'll force myself to stay awake so I won't have wrinkled clothes to contend with in the am.

Now that I've settled that, the cold I had last night has settled in and more of his cold virus buddies have joined him...they are all taking up space in my sinus' right now. Thank goodness for Vick's...gotta love that stuff. Had a not-so-bright idea at work today to use Vick's for lip-gloss...since I'm breathing thru my mouth and all which gave me chapped lips. At first, it was a brilliant idea...made breathing much easier. Until I went to drink something...YUCK..not a brilliant idea any more.

Corporate offsite meeting tomorrow (actually today) for our whole division...dress up required...yuck once more. Will have to do the whole blow-dry-the-hair-thing which takes about 1/2 done properly...can you tell I am so not intro dress up days?

Dentist appt went very well...A+ at brushing and flossing and boy do my teeth feel's the little things, ya know?

My buddy Little is not doing too well...he keeps asking for things I know nothing of...Vernon's and guessing they are drinks? Anyway, he asked someone to FEDEX him  a case of Vernon's...or is it Vernor's??  Am sure he will get back to me on that selection.

OK guys, this is all for now. Can't breathe, can't swallow and am losing my voice. Lovely for someone that spends their entire day on the phone talking with clients.  Mucho thanks to that one special client that offered to make me soup...your brownie point account is increasing with each call you make...lucky you!

Now if only I could get him to FEDEX that soup to me I'll be all set!

I Hate It When This Happens

Fell asleep around 11:30 after taking cold medicine...and brushing and flossing, of course.  After having some WEIRD dreams over the last couple of hours (I have weird dreams all the time but these were beyond freakish) I'm now WIDE AWAKE and can't get back to sleep. Feel a lot better now than when I went to I'm a bit hyper...wonder what was in that Alleve Cold and Sinus? Um, don't think I wanna know.

So what to do, what to do?

Have been reading blogs for the last hour...sent a couple of emails...checked my voicemail at work..only one message and not a fun one either...hey, if you're not gonna leave me a funny msg after hours then wait  and call me during the day...geesh!  Right Little??

Have a dentist appt after work...semi-annual cleaning time. Love getting my teeth cleaned. Am partial to the prophyjet system where they used a high-powered water jet mixed with baking soda. Can be a tad messy from the overspray but when it's over and done with, it feels like you have brand new teeth in your mouth...and you don't want to eat anything ever again that will spoil the feeling. 

Of course, that feeling passes in an hour or two when you are starving for the Steak and Shake Burger and Fries that you didn't have that is 4 blocks away from your dentist's office.

Man...I must be sick. Am starving right now and Steak and Shake doesn't even sound good. Lemonade popsicles are the only thing that sound good. Sorbet, which I only eat when I'm not feeling well sounds killer.  And of course I have none.

Thanks for staying up with me and keeping me company.  If I knew your im, we could im for a bit to kill the time.  But since I don't, I'm gonna try and fall back asleep...this time without the weird dreams.

Trust me, you don't wanna know.

NNSD...take two.

3:17 pm

The exact moment I knew I was coming down with a cold.

You know how it starts... a tickle in the back of the throat. A sneeze or two or three.  At 4:08 I started feeling like I'd been hit with a baseball bat. 5:17 went to my truck to get my workout gear and talk with a buddy (sometimes the walls have ears, ya know??) then went back to my desk.  And it sorta kinda went downhill from there.  Wound up not working out, just working until 7:28.

And now? I hurt all over, my eyes are burning, my nose is stuffed up and my throat is killing me. Whine!  Maybe Eek! will let me borrow one of her spare hot boy-nurses?? The tallest one you have should do just fine. And if he's a trained Massage Therapist (my shoulders have been killing me all day) even better.

Time for Chicken Soup then calling it a night.


My December

Back on 24 December I wrote about losing my iTunes while trying to download My December.

I had first heard the song December of 2003 and really liked it but could never find it. Sooo...was gonna try getting it from iMusic Store.

Long story short, you know what happened. The good news is that I'm now able to listen to the download my buddy Scott sent me since my iTunes is all better now. And listen to My December (by Linkin Park) is what I did most of last night (when I wasn't listening to Sum 41) and a large part of today.

As songs go, it's really unique. Slow, moody, good sound effects, GREAT really got under my skin. It could very well replace the 'We Wish You A Merry Christmas' ringtone I have for my family.

Stay iTuned!

Jason @ The Boca Apple Store RAWKS!!

Of course, I told Jason I was gonna blog about him.

How could I not blog about the totally cool Apple Genius that FIXED MY iTUNES PROBLEM! YES!! I have my iTunes back where they belong...on my iBook.  The drought is over.

Jason fixed the problem of the missing iTunes by searching for them (d'oh...I would have never thought of that...honest!), then figured out I needed an upgrade. So he did the upgrade, removed my iTunes from the Documents folder where someone...ummm, that would be me...mistakenly placed them and voila...had my iTunes back along with access to the iMusic Store which I had wanted in the first place. Very happy camper that made me.

When all was said and done I was so thrilled I wanted to hug him. Of course, that probably wouldn't have gone over that well altho he could tell that I was super-psyched. So I did the next best thing...shared two of my fave photo-blogs with him...Derek and Heather's sites. He was impressed and shared his mac file with me of incredibly cool pix that he and his Apple buddies took on their recent trip to Apple HQ in Cupertino, old stomping grounds...sigh....moment of silence. Way cool pix they were too...especially of the Golden Gate Bridge at night.

And now...several hours later...have added more CD's to my iPod and am sitting here in bed blogging and listening to Sum 41...who else...on my iPod. And life in Kathyland is very very good tonite.

Don't you just love a happy ending???

Let It Snow??

Tons o' snow for my buddies in Boston...ScottSquared, Jen, cousins Bill and Betsy in buddy Mike outside of Chicago and we can't forget Jillian in PA.

First thing I think of when I hear of a snow storm is staying inside bundled up in front of a fireplace drinking hot chocolate after having been outside waging snowball wars.  The rudimentary basics of shoveling snow and having to drive in the stuff never enter my mind.

Stay safe guys...I know it's not fun, especially when you have to camp out in a hotel so you can be close enough to your hospital to get to work...right Little??

If it's not too much to ask, tho, could one of you please make a snowball and throw it at someone...just for me??  Thanks!!

C.Y.H.M.N., Part Two

Which would mean Can You Hear Me Now, Part 2...

Last weekend I asked for your kind assistance in picking a new cell provider. Got some great feedback as well as learned some things I didn't if you have Verizon as your cell provider and call friends that have Verizon as well, your calls to them are free. Sweet! That is cool. My buddy Abby has Verizon as do several other friends.

Was concerned with strength of signal since my Sprint signal is never more than 3 bars in my house...and is usually at 2 most of the time. Discovered my roomie Jacob has T-Mobile and he says the signal in our house is ok, depending on where you are. Hmmm...will have to get with him over the weekend and see which rooms his signal is strongest in...since it would do me no good if the signal in his room is great and while the signal in my room sucks.

Then there is the question of phones. Currently have the red Nokia3583i. I absolutely detest, despise, hate the color red, but what the hell, it was a free phone. The phone I would LIKE to have is the Motorola V300.

What I'm looking for in my next phone is :

* Text Messaging
* AOL IM capability
* Speakerphone
* Bluetooth capability
* Camera
* Clamshell

Really like the tactile feel of the summer roomie Quinn had one and I loved using his when we used to do campaign calling.

So that's what I'm looking for in my next phone. As far as providers, it's pretty much a 3-way tie between staying with Sprint, T-Mobile (since my phone is free) or Verizon (even tho they don't have the phone I want the plans they have are very attractive).

So talk to me...I'm all ears!

[Update : It's gonna be T-Mobile. And just as I was about to go for the Motorola V300, I ran across the Sharp TM-150....check 'em out!]

Will make my final decision sometime soon. Thanks for your help :-)


...stands for Night Night Sweet Dreams...what my Mom and Dad would say to us each night right after story time was finished as they turned out the lights.

Was at work for 15 minutes shy of 12 hours today...I am beat and my mouth feels like it's gonna fall off from all the talking I did NNSD to all of you...I'm hittin' it.

The Best Laid Plans

Had planned on coming home from my lovely dinner at Cheesecake Factory with my DFA buddy Tom and blogging all about it.

But...on the way home was almost killed in a head-on collision that really and truly freaked me out big-time....and now that I'm home I'm just gonna call it a night and go to sleep.

Thanks Mike for talking me down and making sure I got home're an angel :-)

As for everyone else, I'll catch up with you tomorrow. NNSD and don't forget to wear black tomorrow for Coronation/Inaguration Day.