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Last Look

Several end of 2004 thoughts as I head out the door -

* I have much to be thankful for. While it was a not-so-great year in several areas (economical and professional as well as the dreadful election outcome) I missed hurricane damage four times, all my flights landed safely, I got to spend 10 days in CA with my entire family, I met some wonderful friends this year and as of this second, all my family and friends are alive and safe and healthy. Compared to the tsunami-stricken areas, I am oh-so-fortunate and incredibly thankful for what I do have.

* I am STAYING at my job. Decisions were made that will favor my clients and myself. Baruch Ata Adonai. I love my job and don't have to look for another one. And I am getting a raise as well. TOTALLY unexpected since our company never gives raises. Never say never.

* Things will get better. 2 November I was suicidal. I can share that with you now. Things were sad, scary and touch&go there for a long time. Only two people knew...a blogger buddy and a personal buddy. Thanks for listening, buddies. Life is much better now. I promise.

* Having puppies in your life is always a good thing.

* One of the best things that happened to me this year was having someone tell me that I was their hero.

That's my short list. Tomorrow, my Birthday Resolutions.

NNSD, party safe and Bye-Bye 2004


Why Am I So Tired?

Just crawled into my nice comfy bed after waking up suddenly on the couch downstairs...laptop in lap, EAGLES on Monday Night Football and having no earthly concept of where I was or what I was doing.

Could barely keep my eyes open tonite. Work was certainly slow and boring today, something that almost never happens, but given the holiday week it was dead. Spent the last two hours of the work-day re-organizing the files on my desk and catching up on filing that I'd allow to accumulate.

If it's like that tomorrow, please call me at work...that is if you know my work #. And many of you DO, so please go for it :-) It will help me stay awake!

Had meant to finish up with my 2005 budget tonite, had meant to bake Toll House Cookies, had meant to work out, had meant to watch the game. Well, at least I watched the first half before conking out.

And now, I'm crashing once again. Not sure if it's our cooler than usual weather or what, but I haven't been this tired in ages.

So nnsd to all of you...I have an appointment with my pillows!


This Time Last Year..

At this time last year...

I had never been active in politics. I'd never donated money to a campaign, done a visibillity event, placed a political sticker (hell, ANY sticker!) on my truck, argued with a friend over politics or met a politician. I didn't know what a blog was. I was on the internet 13, maybe 14 hours a month...with dial-up. (HA!)

I'd hadn't had a roommate since college, never spoke up at work if something wasn't to my liking, had no local friends other than Trace in Miami and three friends from work. Weekends were spent working out and not doing much else.I'd never downloaded music. I had no idea what Netflix, Craigslist, iTunes Music Store was. I had a quiet life in a too-big house and was basically wasting away from self-imposed hermititude (made up word).

And then I met a blogger. And in a nutshell, life was never the same again.

2004 has been one of the brightest , funniest, saddest and most interesting years of my life. I'm definitely a better person for what I've been thru and what I've witnessed. And thankfully, there is no going back to the way I used to be. Sadly, some of my friends have had problems with that. But that is their problem, not mine and ultimately change is for the better.

I love end of the year retrospectives. Gives you a chance to look back and revisit the events that shaped your year. Have gone back and read almost every post I've written since starting my blog. Brings back memories.

Thanks to all of you for reading and posting. Funny how this little experiment called a blog can bring the coolest, neatest and most awesome people into your life!


Expect the Unexpected

I balanced my checkbook today without procrastinating.

Which is incredibly odd in and of itself.

Normally, I don't procrastinate at all. Hardly ever. Except when it comes to balancing my checkbook. When I was still married I took care of all the bills and such, and the checkbook was balanced on a daily basis. When I moved out, the trend continued. Then all of a sudden, I'd bought a house and heaven knows why, but I turned into the Princess of Procrastination. And I put it off. One month...then two...then 10! Yikes!

Never bounced a check, since I checked my balance online and roughly knew what was what...but still...why had this control freak of a person changed overnite? And when I did get around to balancing, it was only after a series of doing everything else I could think of under the sun to postpone the inevitable. Trust me, you don't want to know some of the ploys I utilized to push back doing the deed.

And then this afternoon, I just sat down and did it. Whoa. What's up with that?

It wasn't until I'd finished that I realized what I had done. Not sure how my mind played that trick on me but it did. Not only did I complete the task, but I'm amazed it got done with NO procrastinating at all...not one bit. Which sorta scares me and really mystifies me. What was different from today than all the other days? Is this the start of a new trend in Kathyland? Maybe a birthday resolution that needed to happen?

Have a clue? Please share, cause I am fresh outta clues.


Nothing Says Christmas Like Lasagna

...and Garlic Bread.

Hey Dad and Mom...I'm using my oven. Second time in almost two years. Aren't you proud of me??:-)

Decided last week to have a somewhat nicer dinner on Christmas than my usual cereal, or cheese snack and glass of milk dinner. My roomie celebrates Christmas so I'm taking it up a notch by making (ie- heating up) Lasagna and Garlic Bread. Meant to pop it in the oven after my short nap, except the short nap turned into a 3 hour snooze.

This has been a really laid back day. Slept in, cleaned out the garage, finally disposed of all my Kerry/Edwards and Betty Castor campaign signs that I just COULDN'T throw away, and took all the political stickers off my truck (K/E, Castor and Stork) and replaced it with one of my birthday presents from Paul and Eric.

My buddies Chris and Jillian are nuts about ‘Family Guy’, so I took their advice and have 2 season’s worth of DVD’s to watch for the rest of the night.

Timer just went off...time to eat.

Merry Christmas!


Presents

For someone that doesn't celebrate Christmas, I've gotten some really nifty presents in the last 24 hours..

Laughter - While getting my hair done yesterday afternoon, my stylist JV had me laughing so hard (as usual) that today my stomach feels like I did 100 crunches...yeah, as if!!

Wonder - While waiting to get my hair done yesterday, this little red-haired, freckle-faced 3 year old girl all dressed in purple came up to show me that she'd lost one of her front teeth. And the conversation that followed centered on who would visit her first Christmas Eve...Santa or the Tooth Fairy?

Friendship - Paul and Eric's house, where else? Paul and Eric are two of the nicest, coolest, funniest guys you'll ever meet. I call them my 'two angels'. Met them thru the Stork Campaign and we just clicked. Now I can't ever imagine them not being in my life. Their party last night was wonderful. Incredible food, lots of fun and interesting guests (got to meet Paul's mom!) and overall the best time I've had since they were at my house a week earlier.

Family - Did my annual 'Call the family' call on my way home from Paul and Eric's. They all liked my poem...Matt and Jeff were especially impressed, and it was heaven to be able to talk to everyone. Shared with my brother Patrick and my nephew Tommy that Christmas Eve with my family is such a defining moment for me that I have 'We Wish You A Merry Christmas' as the ring tone for all of my family members.

And last but so not least...

A Shiny New Blog - My buddy Scott has a new blog. Check it out...I am beyond impressed. Merry Christmas, Little!


For My Family

‘Twas the night before Christmas
And I’m on the phone
My family’s in CA
And I’m here alone

A yearly tradition
Takes place once again
The whole crowd comes over
Eats, drinks, and settles in

My parents have been cooking
For over two days
More food than you can fathom
It’s our Irish-Hungarian ways

There’s ham, turkey, meatballs
Dinner rolls too
Aunt Maggie’s Jello Salad
And yeah, lots of booze

The house is crammed tight
With sisters and brothers
Dozens of cousins
And numerous others

Then suddenly the phone rings
Yep, that would be me
Calling to chat
With Diane then Denise

Tommy, then Matthew
Dad, Mom, Nichole &Terry
Patrick my brother
They all sound so merry

Then Mike, Kelly, Lindsay
Auntie Chele and Brian
Jeff, Casey, Erika,
I wanna start cryin’

Devon, Darian, Heather
Lori, Mr & Mrs G
Hopefully Patrick and maybe Damaris?

My family’s all there
And me, I am not
I’m back here in FL
80 degrees, humid and hot

I miss them so much
And love them much more
So I call on Christmas Eve
Instead of walking thru their door.

I talk to everyone
To see what is new
To tell them I love them
I know they love me too

Thank goodness for phone calls
It’s part of the night
It’s just like I’m with them
And that feels just right


Merry Christmas, Guys... I Love You!


Disconnect

Sitting here thinking -

* Was blown off at work Weds...the 'decision' will have to wait for another week until the powers that be 'decide' to stop procrastinating.

* Woulda been nice if the two parties that had promised to pay me the cumulative $500 that they owed me BEFORE Christmas woulda kept their promise.

* It's pretty funny to watch a duck gliding in for a landing on the lake outside my window at the same time a motorcycle is racing by...the sight effects coupled with the sound effects is hilarious.

* In an attempt to download a .99cent song ('My December'- Linkin Park) I inadvertantly trashed my iTunes while attempting to download the iTunes music store. So the old iTunes with all my way cool music is gone, I have a new green iTunes thingie that atutomatically quits when I try to open it and no way in hell am I going anywhere near the Apple Store that is located in the dreaded Town Center mall. And thanks Scott for trying to talk me thru how to get it back.

And that is my day so far.


Can't Sleep

Nice weather with the windows open...Winter in FL always reminds me of Spring in CA...especially the Spring of my Senior year.

Anyway, have a lot on my mind...probably why I can't sleep. A decision will be made at work today that will determine if I stay or go. Keeping an open mind and not trying to guess the outcome, altho when I left work last Friday the outcome was not promising.

Had a small setback at home today that I allowed to change my mindset and affect my plans for a carefree 'last-day-off-from-work'. Instead of spending the day on Las Olas, I brooded and busied myself with random cleaning...a good way to tell if something is bothering me is when I clean non-stop, no detail being too small. At least the outcome is always somewhat positive, at least as far as having cleaner surroundings.

And tonite just wasn't much better than today.

Abby's spending the nite so it was nice to hash things out with her...always nice to have a friend that understands what you're going thru.

So yeah, I'm up late, blog-surfing and trying to get sleepy...no luck yet.

Might have better luck if I'm not vertical...ya think?

nnsd...


Takin It Easy

Purposely took today off to recover from the A&KBB of last night. Glad I did...slept in until 10 which felt great. Slight headache from celebrating but that's about it and it's nothing a couple of Alleve won't fix. Hung out with Abby before she left for her last day of 'freedom'...she starts work at my company tomorrow.

On tap for today? Doing whatever I want to do! YES!

So far, finished watching 'Elf', and just started 'School of Rock'. And once this is over, I'm off to see HIM.

It's absolutely beautiful here today....sunny cloudless skies, breezy and a bit chilly. Very very nice.

Have tomorrow off as well...my annual 'Las Olas Hangout Day'. Love Las Olas...cool shops, cool restaurants, and the Carrie B.

Ok, back to the video.


Hmm-Sounds Like A Good Day For A Party

My horroscope for today - 

Forget about work -- it's time to play. Of course, there are some responsibilities that you probably can't get out of, but there's no reason you can't have fun while you go about your everyday life. Make a game out of a chore, or listen to your favorite music while you clean the house or wash your car. Life is too short to be miserable, and if you really think about it, you have very little to be upset about right now! Make every minute count and don't forget to laugh and smile.


Busy Busy Busy

Have a jillion things to do before the A&KBB tomorrow night.

Couldn't start the day without blogging, tho.

Isn't it funny, the habits we form? The blogs I need to (hmmm...is it a want or a need...nah, a need!) check to see if anything funny/profound/enlightening happened while I slept.

Here in FL the rain we had all day Friday is history. Bright sunny skies, nice cool breezes...perfect weather for cleaning the front porch, the back patio, washing the windows, etc, etc, etc. All of which happen to be on my To-Do list. Am gonna enlist the roomies to help as well. They don't know that yet...they're still snoozing!

Ok, time to get busy.

Happy Saturday & I'll catch ya later!


Whatta Day!

Had a bad dream last night and wound up falling out of bed and smashing the right side of my head on my nightstand. And yes, it hurts very much, thanks for asking! Scared the crap out of me too and gave me a migraine all day.

Lots of stressful events at work, more than normal. Migraine raged but I didn't succumb to my sure fire cure of Coke, Aleve and Chocolate...am trying to wean myself off Coke....so far I've gone for 3 days without opening a chilled little red can of carbonated pleasure.

At the end of the work day, with more work still to be done, I said 'screw it' and walked out the door with my roomie K (Jacob had already left)...we both agreed drinks were in order.

Bru's!

Katy's Mystery Shots (way yum) Amstel Light and Buffalo Chicken Salad...started to feel better instantly. We struck up a conversation with Sean, an artist and fellow Progressive. Sean has a gallery which we will check out this weekend. Sean has also never heard of blogs (Oh, the horror!) and I soon as I post this entry, Sean will get a link to my blog, Typepad, Daily Kos and other blogs I think he might like.

And the thought that Sean had to share with all of us here on the internet in parting was 'Why don't they make everyone that is anti-choice (his actual words were pro-life) adopt a child?

Good idea, I'll go with that. I like it when people's actions speak louder than their words.

And on that note, time to send this link off to Sean and initiate another unsuspecting soul into the ways of the blog!


A Very BAD Idea

Repeat after me...'I am low-tech'. Not stupid or dumb by any means, just very very low-tech.

OK, ready?

Decided to be brave and dowload the new Firefox by Mozilla that everyone and their geek-brother is talking about. All the hype I kept hearing extolled how 'easy' it was. Guess what? Not easy. Not at all. I am in FREAKOUT mode.

I have several Firefox icons on the right side of my screen. What does 1.0.dmg mean? And what is .gzip? Cute icon but what does it do?

Read the instructions for how to switch my bookmarks, etc. Sorry, I'm lost. CRAP. Hate feeling this way.

And HOW is this supposed to make my life easier?

Hey geeks! Luv ya but I'm gonna stick with IE for now. Will wait until after the holidays to venture out to the Apple Store and seek the advice of the genius du jour. This ain't easy (not for me at least) and I'm so not having fun right now.


Enquiring Minds

Stolen from Eek!

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Started a blog & got active in politics are my top two

2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Don’t make NY Resolutions. Make birthday resolutions...kept a fair amount of last year’s and yes I will make more for this year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
The Buddha Boy Jayden entered the world.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully, no.

5. What countries did you visit?
None

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
The same amount of money I used to make before George Bush lied to the US about reasons for going to war & our economy went into the toilet.

7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
2 November 2004. The day my heart broke.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Opening up my mind wider than I ever have in my entire life.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not listening to my gut feelings.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
3 Gum grafts (note to everyone reading - don’t brush your teeth so hard in the first 20 years of your life), 2 root canals (one a re-do).

11. What was the best thing you bought?
JBL Creature Speakers for my iPod

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Jacob, Abby, Chris, Amanda, Danielle,John, Steve, Jillian,Quinn, Kevin, Paul, Eric, Jason...my summer Stork heroes

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
They know who they are and I hope they’re hanging their heads in shame.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Paid off my truck, my credit cards, my computer...tried to get as debt-free as possible.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Daily Kos, blogs, Howard Dean Campaign, DFA, Stork Campaign, the Great Fruit Punch Flood, the day I canvassed with Paul and Jason among the high-rollers of Ft. Lauderdale, the Castor Campaign, having roommates, no damage from the 4 hurricanes that hit us, wireless internet, Foster Puppies, the kindess of the internet, my parent’s wedding anniversary and spending time with our family and good friends, my beloved nephew not dying from his drug overdose, the Warped Tour, Bruce’s visit, Beastie boys concert, MEETING HOWARD DEAN, tons of great alt and internet music that’s out there and knowing that most days in FL will end with killer sunsets.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
‘I Believe In A Thing Called Love’ by The Darkness

17. Compared to this time last year, you are:
More realistic as to the economic future of my current industry

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Wish I had made exercise, writing hand-written notes and reading more of a priority.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Procrastinating

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Don’t celebrate Christmas, being a Jew and all. I will definitely sleep in and watch as much football as possible. And maybe go to the movies. Christmas Eve is a different matter. Will place the traditional call to the entire family gathered at my parent’s house in So Cal and talk to every single one who is present. My most favorite tradition and I wouldn’t miss it for the world. Then I cry when I hang up because I miss all of them so very much.

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
In like, for sure. In love, nope.

23. How many one-night stands?
:-)

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Jon Stewart’s ‘The Daily Show’.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yes, sad to say.

26. What was the best book you read?
‘Under the Banner of Heaven” Jon Krakauer...scariest book I read.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
So many awesome CD’s and musicians...way too many to name

28. What did you want and get?
The chance to make a difference in an election year

29. What did you want and not get?
A different president.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
So far, ‘Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind’ and ‘Garden State’.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
My birthday was 12/13...my joint party with Abby will be this Sunday. So far the guest list is at 22...should be memorable.

32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Kerry/Edwards winning the election

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Clean, too-casual, it’s all about comfort. And I probably have way too many baseball caps for a chick.

34. What kept you sane?
Knowing that at the end of the day I have a house I love and feel safe in, several friends that I trust with my life and can trust my life to, and knowing that as bad as it’s been in the past couple years that things do happen for a reason and change is ultimately good.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Jon Stewart

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The elections...both on the local and national level.

37. Who did you miss?
I’ve missed my former Wonder Weiner Dog every day since 7 Dec 2001.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Collectively, almost everyone affiliated with Team Stork. Changed my life in so many wonderful ways...they’ve all been blessings in disguise.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
As corny as it sounds, actions really do speak louder than words. And of course my favorite...my perception IS my reality!


Resolutions

Most people make (then break) New Year’s Resolutions.

Since December 2001 I’ve followed my own voice and made Birthday Resolutions. Why? Your birthday is a day that is special to you and is also a day of above-ordinary significance.

The way I record them is special as well.

I find a card or a graphic that encompasses the general feeling of the resolutions I want to make. For example, the card for my 2003 resolutions was a Brian Andreas card. The exact card was this one.

And my resolutions for 2003 were :

* Shut Up (Mission Accomplished- I listened more and talked less that year)
* Be Selfish (A new concept for me...I did pretty good for a newbie)
* Be Assertive (Was easier than I thought)
* Save $400 a Month (Didn’t do that cause I did the next one instead)
* Buy a house by 12/31/03 (Moved in to my house 2/21/03)
* Two really good vacations ( California and Arizona- wonderful vacays)
* Continue with personal trainer (Did so until I had my rotator cuff injury)
* Start organizing business (Didn’t do it in 2003 but I did do it this year)
* Print neater (I can tell you my printing is at least 90% neater than it used to be)

My 2004 resolutions were not as successful...maybe because my card was too daunting (What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?) or let’s face it...maybe I was just a little lazier in certain areas this past year.

My goals were :

*Don’t Cave (Actually did very well on that one)
*Stick to weekly budget (Ha! Failed miserably)
*Practice ‘Ahavachesed’ -Hebrew for ‘lovingkindness’ (Was about 85-90% on that one)
*15 new Crock Pot recipes - (Ha once more. Beef Stew. Chicken Stew. That’s it)
*15 new Mixed Drink Recipes - (NO PROBLEM with that one)
*Go out 2x week minimum (Originally picked to force myself to get out of the house...getting involved in politics took care of that and then some)
*Mail family birthday schedule to my entire family (Failed miserably. Did it two years in a row once and now they want it every year. HELLO...the dates don’t change??
*Exercise 5x week minimum (Maintained that until the Primaries then I never got back on track)

So that’s been the hits and misses of the last two years.

My birthday is in a couple of days so it’s time to start thinking of a new set of resolutions. And to find a really cute or inspiring or funny card to write my goals on and post it in my closet...right next to the other two cards...yep, I save them so once the year passes I can enjoy the artwork on the outside as well as take a peak inside if I want to stroll down memory lane.

I’ll keep ya posted on what I come up with. Sharing with the internet might make me more accountable. Can’t hurt and could help. Though when it comes right down to it, the best motivator in my life has been, for the most part, the little voice inside.

And right now the little voice is telling me to turn off my laptop and get some sleep cause I have a ton of stuff to do tomorrow and haven’t I spent ENOUGH time online today already?

The little voice makes a good point.

nnsd.